January 2009
My thoughts; About 0.546463 of them.
You know that I thought that once 2009 came, everything was going to be different. It wasn’t. My life is pretty much the same and everyone around me is too. I’ve realized so many things in the past hour, I can’t even begin to tell you. I’ve noticed how people can be ashamed of what they feel so badly, that they’ll keep at a secret. I’ve noticed how people love making you feel weak and how they’re...
I hate my guts. I feel so pathetic. You’re always bringing up my mistakes and putting me down, and you know what? Fuck you. I’m done doing that.
Everytime I get a journal/blog thing, I’m never loyal. I’m sorry Tumblr. I’m a mess right now and my thoughts are too disorganized :-(
When you say ”Forget it, don’t help me” don’t expect me to help you. And if you did want my help, develop something called Patience.
I’m on my way to Kelly’s house. I’m so glad, my house can get on my nerves every once in a while. Especially with all the screaming.
I don’t know where I’m going but I hope they give free food. If not, I’ll be dissapointed :( Yesterday was shocking, you better stop trying
When I’m hungry and I watch the food network, it’s like porn to me. I’m serious.
I’m jealous. And I admit it, but just to make it clear, its on the general topic not on them.
I hate being alone afterschool. I realized a lot today, but it’s too much to write here. And i don’t have any pep for tomorrows’ pep rally.
What I did this afternoon: talked to my mom, picked up my brother, went to coldstone, ate ice cream, got beat up by my brother. REGULAR DAY
You probably won’t be getting long posts anymore unless I’m venting. I’m on my way to Dolphin with some friends. Hopefully I’ll see someone
Johnny just picked me up from Ely’s house! At an actual college party now. That sounds very cliche.
I’m not going to lie, I’m head over heels for you. Wow, that sounds pathetic.
I’m so stressed. I’m losing everything. My heart hurts. My vision is impared. My thoughts are scattered. I can’t find anything. I’m dazed
I’m going to the doctors tomorrow. Everything hurts. I think something is eating me from inside - I’m slowly decomposing.
“Friends come and go, enemies accumulate.”
– annonymous
Why must
my family come over every fucking day? Can’t they stay at their house? I understand you want to “spend time with the family” but at least take care of your own fucking children. Close your goddamn legs if you’re not going to take care of them.
My little cousins don’t stop screaming.They don’t stop talking. They don’t stop crying. They don’t stop...
I don't
want to go back to school tomorrow. I hate school. I hate work, homework, any type of work! Part of me wants to go back to see the people there but another part of me doesn’t. I’m not getting a very good feeling about tomorrow. My friends seem to be dying off one by one (not literally) and really, I don’t want to deal with it.
I might cry.
The year just started. I won’t cry cause of you, alright mother?
Haha
I just found out the juicest thing so far this year. And the year just started! People really don’t understand others..or at least, they don’t even try to. I’m good. I’m still happy, a bit relieved actually.
I love it when I find out things that people can’t tell me straight to my face. Best feeling in the world <3
-Mayra Rae.
Two of the
main people in my life are drifting. Is that good? I don’t think so..right? Unless they don’t care much for me anymore. Recently, its just me trying and them just…there.
I really hope everything is okay. Running errands as well today!
-Mayra Rae
Let me really fill you in,
A while ago I said “I’ve concluded that I have no best friends”. Let me expand on this. I do have two very good friends and I love them. But I don’t consider them my best friends because of past events and the fact that those two people have two other people that are THEIR best friends. The term “best friend” has always been very significant to me. I...
Good afternoon. I look like crap today and I’ll be running errands all day. This morning, I’ve concluded that I have no best friends. Bye.
Happy 2009
My head hurts. WOW, it’s finally 2009. This year I’ve decided to make it the year in which I become what I finally want to be. I’m getting better friends, meeting new people, acting differently, not letting things get to me and such. I don’t know how the hell I’m going to achieve this because I don’t know if I’ve mentioned this before but, I have been very...
I fucking hate my family. I just want them all to shut the hell up and go away. Leave me ALONE!
Typical New Years conversation with my family,
Cousin #1: Mayra! C'mon, DANCE!
Cousin #2: Yeah, you know you want to! *twirls around*
Aunts #1 and #2: VODKA! WOO, LOOK AT US PARTYING WITH THE UNDERAGED KIDS!
Me: I hope you realize how pathetic you guys look right now *sips from drink*
-Cousins #1 and #2 and #3 (who randomly enters) and aunt #1 and aunt #2 look at Mayra, confused.-
-They continue looking pathetic-